The Day. And The Night.

So, today I left Baldwin County to begin a new chapter in Tuscaloosa. This past week I have been so excited, but the last couple of days my emotions really took hold of me. This morning was SO hard. I woke up early, was getting stuff ready, then dad came in my room to get a cable for my TV. He gave me a big hug and started to get upset. Then he got upset when I was saying bye to the cats. I think he's taking it harder than mom. I don't know. It's just been hard today. I really didn't think I woud be able to leave. But here I now sit in my room....

My room looks great. Unpacking and decorating was great to distract my mind. I met my roommates and some of their friends. It's going to take a bit to get into the swing of things and just throw myself into a new group, but they are awesome and fun people, so hopefully I'll transition well. I went out for ice cream with Laura and her brother Michael (who also offered a possible job at Planet Fitness). Thanks to them. I really needed that. I had some good laughs and it got my mind off of missing my family. I'm really working on meeting new people and being more outgoing. Then mom and dad left. As did my roommates. I started organizing the bathroom...then I just lost it again. I'm so excited, I really am. It's just so hard for me to let go of things. I'm so so so so close to my parents. Saying goodbye is going to be entirely too difficult. Tonight is hard enough. My first night alone. I hate being alone and it seems already that that happens often in college. I want to be independent, but I hate being alone so much. I ahte coming 'home' to no comments from mom and dad, no Louis meowing at me, no lights on. I'm sure it will get better once routines get set and people aren't doing all kinds of welcome/community service things. I hope so anyway. If it doesn't, I don't know how I will handle it.

I miss my mom and dad. I miss my brothers. I miss my cats. I miss my home.