Oh. That's What That Pit in My Stomach is...

Got my MacBook and iTouch today. I am pretty much in love with them. I've been trying to configure everything and get it all situated, and I already favor it over PC. I also discovered, I have entirely to much music to transfer from my Zune and CDs to my iTouch. It's virtually an act of congress getting all of the music on it...

Packing. Oh my. I conquered a good bit of today, finally. I had to just get up and make myself do it. I think I keep prolonging it because it's just one step closer to my being on my own. Don't get me wrong, I can't wait to grow up an have my independence, but I'm going to miss having mom and dad to help me out with little things. It's just strange....

I didn't think I was nervous at all. I am ecstatic, but the past few days I have not been able to eat. I only snack every once in a while. I can't even finish an apple. So I have come to the conclusion, that I have been pushing my nerves to the recesses of my subconscious. The truth is, I am nervous. I don't want to say goodbye to my parents. I don't want things to change so drastically. I mean, let's be honest. When I come back from college, it won't be the same. I will be a college kid home on vacation. I won't be Bill and Jackie's daughter that lives at home. And after these four years, I'm kind of a grown up. I'm on my own.

Ok. I've just got to stop. I'm getting emotional for the first time....