I can't believe that I will be leaving in one week. I have so much to do that I didn't even realize. I started to make a to-do list and couldn't believe the lengths to which it grew!!! I thought I was really on task for switching schools so late, but so much has snuck up on me. I've packed and organized all of the stuff I had to buy for school, but for some reason I didn't even think about all the stuff I already have, i.e., clothes, bathroom stuff, pictures, books. And how will all of this fit into the two vehicles we are taking? Ha. I wish I knew. I have to make sure that everything I ordered online will be here in time for my leaving, which is more difficult than I anticipated. And then there are all of the people I want to spend time with before I leave. So many friends going to other schools, friends from church, friends from other colleges--I have plans for almost every night until I leave, and this is great, until I think about my family. They are the ones I'm going to be crying over when they leave. I want to spend quality time with them, too.

I'm worried that leaving will change my relationship with Lilah and Liam, my neice and nephew. Will they still like me or remember me? Lilah is about to start school. I hate that I'm going to miss out on a lot of first experiences with her. One day I'll be the cool Aunt "Chuuulsea" living in Seattle that takes Lilah shopping and has fun slumber parties and takes trips to the zoo.

I'm learning it's good to have a plan and stick to it, but you also just have to take life one step at a time. I've always tried to stay a mile ahead of everyone else, but that gets you nowhere but alone. I'm not suggesting that procrastination is the way to go, but you can't always be perfect or ahead of everyone. I'm glad I learned that. It has helped me a lot with my stress issues.

Ok. This has distracted me enough. Time to go tackle some things on the ever-growing to-do list.