OMG DAD LOOK! I'M BLOGGING AGAIN!

Well. It's been what, two months? It's October. Life is absolutely wonderfully and beautifully insane. College has been such a roller coaster of emotions and experiences. I'm loving every minute of it. I know that I'm becoming an adult. I'm dealing with 'grown-up' issues. My next birthday, I blow out 20 candles. The teenage years are gone for me. I don't know whether to be sad or excited...I'm a little bit of both.

I'm gaining more and more direction in my life. My little stint with pre-med was short lived. Who saw that coming besides the entire world? I met a man from the US Dept. of Foreign Services and am strongly considering going into some sort of international relations field. Whether it be working with the military or government on an embassy somewhere, I really feel like that's something I could make a living out of and thoroughly enjoy. But, as we know, I tend to go wherever the wind blows. I'll let you know my revamped plans next week...

I'm not working for the CW right now. I have entirely too much on my plate. THis post is actually further procrastination on my part. I'm avoiding my responsibilities. I've got a bunch of papers and tests this week...and it's Homecoming week so I have ten glorious hours of pomping to do. I love being involved....:/

Loving my roommates and friends. I have so much fun everyday. I live with my best friends who are now like family to me. It's such a blessing that I thank God for everyday.

Speaking of God...kind of struggling with church and religion these days. Not God. I love Him, we talk everyday and I read my Bible. We're cool. I mean, He sent His son to die for me and cleanse my soul, how could I not fall in love with Him daily? Church, though. Not so great right now. I understand that there is spiritual warfare in this world, but I feel like all I'm catching lately is friendly fire. I'm being judged for no reason. I'm not accepted in the cliques. Whether they realize it or not, the people involved in this 'all-inclusive body of believers' have been pushing me away while I have been trying to push in. It's a daily struggle to not let these emotions overflow into my feelings about God. Humans are not perfect and they make mistakes. It's not God's fault. I don't want the speeches about how I need Christian fellowship. I am aware. I know these things. Right now, I need space to breathe and detox. I've gotta get the poisonous anger out of my system before I'll be ready to tackle church again. No worries. I'm still me. I'm just finding my own way...

I'm continually amazed by how God places people in my life at the perfect moments. I've met so many new people. One person is...well...pretty awesome, and I can't wait to continue getting to know him. I'll just let you fill in the blanks on that one.

Big news...I'M GOING TO SPAIN NEXT SEMESTER! Unless something goes horribly wrong with payments and paperwork this week, I will be studying Spanish Language and Literature at the University of Valencia during my spring semester. Finally studying abroad...I cannot even begin to express how ecstatic I am. I'm also pretty nervous. I hope I can do it...I mean, I hope I don't freak out and have to come home or something or totally fail at the language. Only time will tell!

Well, now I'm super distracted between skyping and chatting with people. I think I have wasted a sufficient amount of time. I've gotta hit the books so I can ace a bio exam and Spanish escritura tomorrow.

As always, I hope to write more, but I make no promises as I so often break them.

Roll Tide.